My Daddy

"Sorry", is not the hardest word...writing about my father is. I'm a father myself and I find myself really inadequate. I'm not providing for the family as I should I'm not being supportive as it should be etc etc etc...but this is not about myself. I just wanted to make a point that I'm truly short as a father.

As for my dad...well we must remember that it's around the 50s and the 70s...so fathers then are totally different from they are now. The fathers now are like a "hybrid"...of sort. But definitely the fathers are to love the mummies and not to exasperates the children. They are to provide for the family yet are able to help around the family choirs (otherwise how else to love the spouses.)

On the 29th of December 2008, it would have been 3 years since his demise. No he was not the best father...but he was the best for us...as the LORD sees fit. He was not home most of the time and many times I personally would hope that I will not have to see him...because every time he sees me I will be asked questions that I cannot answer and I will have to inhale his smoke. He will be found to be demanding and also in frequent arguments with mom.

His negatives aside...he has never allowed to to know him or to know his struggle. That's like knowing what's lurks underneath the deepest ocean. He always portrait himself to be the strong resilient father. He is the father that knows it all...and many times he is found to be right. Really good in his judgment on things. He is the father figure of the 50s to the 70s. No I can never imitate him. (To my kiddos I'm always the dumb dumb. The mummy is the bright one. It's always...""Why? Papa you don't know meh?"

So dad..I know this is short and I'm not doing justice to your life and love that you have silently showered upon each of us but I just want to say "I love you dad and I truly miss you." How I wish I still have you around to rely on and to call on for guidance and to talk to as we sometimes have...after I have grown up.

To all of you who still have your daddy and mummy around...however hard it may seem...love them and pray for them